Life is a hard. A statement, perhaps a fact, and certainly the title of my favourite track on John Mellencamp’s Mr. Happy Go Lucky album. Infact as I sit here reflecting on that song another title pops into my head – Sheryl Crow’s ‘No one Said It Would Be Easy.’
Just feeling bogged down and squished. Actually ‘squished’ is not a word I would use normally, but it seems apt. Like the few specks of possibility on the landscape are disappearing and I’m being pressed down, slowly crushed by the weight of harsh realities. I never know who to talk to. I never know who I can talk to. I get depressed a lot and I am sure certain people avoid me because of this, because they don’t know what to say or how I’ll react. But I’m just disillusioned.
Somebody left a comment on this video. The timing seems quite fitting. I actually forget this video exists sometimes, that I made it. But I did. I am proud of it, actually. I like the editing. I think it explains something I needed to articulate.
The title of the video is actually an allusion to a Tori Amos song, ‘Silent All These Years.’
Years go by will I still be waiting for somebody else to understand?
I don’t have anything particularly interesting or profound to say right now. I just felt bad that I haven’t blogged in such a long time. I hope you’re all doing okay…
