I stood in a line at the post office ready to post a package I had been meaning to for about 4 weeks. I became really disgusted with myself.
I was wearing the same clothes I had been in for the previous two days. I had been ignoring any email that required me make a commitment to anyone or anything. I had been putting off important correspondence I knew I had to have with people and businesses. I couldn’t bring myself to look at the job classifieds, online or in newspapers. My confidence has taken quite a beating lately, but I haven’t done much to help myself. I realised today how irresponsible I have been. I would like to take this opportunity to apologise. To everyone.
I’ve been making unreasonable demands on other peoples’ time just to derive some sense of personal worth. I’ve been sending thoughtless emails at 2am. I have been looking at the clutter in my room rather than doing anything with it.
The reason I am writing this is because I want to be responsible, I want to make myself responsible. I want everyone who reads this to know what I’ve been up to, and kick my ass if I continue to wallow like I have been.
Its time to rejoin the “real world.” And I appreciate all the help and support I can get.
