A New Year?
I don’t really do New Year’s. Infact, I never have. My annual tradition involves getting something chocolate-coated and a bottle of non-alcoholic wine (I’m a REALLY cheap drunk, evidently), and falling asleep on the couch at around 7pm.
I got a little caught up in the hype this year. I blame youtube. But the truth is its just another day, and the expectations of having a “happy” and “good” new year after one day is omnious and crap and confusing. lol. It wasn’t helped by me waking up at 6:30am this morning and being really irritable and restless. I couldn’t do anything. I didn’t want to sing. I didn’t want to play the keyboard. I was just really really pissed off. Eventually I went to sleep. And I woke up a much more sane person. But I slept for a really long time. I’m a little concerned I might be sick.
So yeah even though the night was largely uneventful (although I had some nice pizza with illucid), and the day a disaster… it isn’t setting the tone of the entire year. Regardless of what xGoboBeanx might say. Like seriously what would she know? She sees naked people.
People used to delight in asking me if I felt any different now that I was 7 or 8 or 9 or whatever birthday I was celebrating. Of course the answer was always no. I felt exactly the same as I did the day before. There is no benefit now to be attaching superstitutions to dates in an arbitrary calendar system. But I do need to work on me. I want to be happy in 2008. Or at least less emo. lol. I’ll take what I can get at this point.
Decluttering my life is a priority. I started with my music collection. Well on the computer, anyway. Baby steps people, baby steps.
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